Last day of the journal!

So I have this journal that I got as a gift for my 18th birthday and for the past 5 years I've been writing my thoughts and events in my life into this little book. Well last night I filled that last page. It felt good. It felt like I had just finished something for the first time in a long time.

It made me think that I never put on here my yearly tradition of the things I've learned in the past year. So here ya go!

22 Things I've learned while 22

1. God loves me and there’s nothing I can do to earn it nor do I need to.
2. My number one goal in life is to be who God wanted me to be and I love working toward that goal.
3. I am the only one keeping me from my dreams and that’s a struggle everyday but at least now I realize this fact.
4. Delay the good for the great.
5. Where you are in life is because of all the choices you made so stop acting like a victim and take responsibility.
6. All it takes is one decision to change everything in your life.
7. My attitude when I went back to school second semester of freshman year was “I will do everything I’ve been too afraid to do and do it well” and that was my happiest time in life. I’m going back to that.
8. I have learned SOOOOO much about marriage in the last year and I’m not even married! Can’t wait to learn more, especially as a wife.
9. I love giving people gifts. It is the best feeling in the world to give something that makes them realize how much you care and know them.
10. It’s a good thing that I’m required to talk to people everyday so I don’t let my shy girl attitude stay very long.
11. If I don’t give myself enough quite time in the day so I can hear myself think, I go crazy.
12. Logan humbles me every day by how much he loves and cares for me.
13. I am so excited that my friends are starting families because now I get to be an aunt! It is the most fun to play with a baby, even if they cry.
14. Action and growth solves everything.
15. Working out is an issue for me if it’s not fun like when I was in show choir… I’m working on making it fun again so I can get the body I know is hiding in me.
16. Speaking something into existence is SO TRUE!
17. My mom is the strongest woman I know.
18. I’ve realized how messed up my thought process has been the past few years and especially 4 years ago and am amazed that I have friends, let alone a boyfriend who still love me.
19. It is not enough to want something with all your being, you have to put the action in to get it!
20. I refuse to settle for anything less than everything!
21. I am stronger than I think I am.
22. I am loving the fact that I get to do things most people won’t so I can live the way most people can’t even imagine! I am so looking forward to this year! 2011 and my 23^rd year is going to be MY YEAR!

Here's to my next journal and the next 5 years!

~Jenny

4 Years and counting!

So we've passed the 4 year mark! That blows my mind! I found an entry in my journal the other day that almost made me fall on the floor laughing. It was from our 4 month anniversary and Logan had just told me that he loved me more than just puppy love lol. I was freaking out because I started looking at my Mom and Dad's relationship stats... met at 19 (I was 19 when I met Logan) Dad proposed within 4 months and Mom just said he realized he loved her and that he didn't want to let her go (Logan had just told me he really loved me and didn't want to loose me), they were "promised ringed" within about a year and then Mom planned their wedding in one semester! That last part freaked me out because I was silly enough to believe that Logan and I had to get married right then. I know I was crazy but hey I was only 19 and had a man actually care about me so I freaked. The funny part came when I was saying how we'd have to wait until after we both graduated college and that would be 4 years and I couldn't imagine being with someone for so long and didn't know if anyone would ever really wait that long to get married.

And now you see the humor! Four years later and we're still not married and still waiting... I'm happy that we are but it just kinda cracks me up that what I feared couldn't happen has happened and we're both okay.

I am still baffled at the idea of knowing when you're ready to get married. How on earth do you know? Still lost and that one but happy God has blessed me with a man who loves me and stretches me everyday.

I love you Logan! Here's to 4 more years ;-)

~Jenny

That girl...

So over the past few years God has been working on me in an amazing way. I have had the Holy Spirit bless me by guiding my life and my areas of self study and growing my relationship with my family, my friends, Logan and God. In this time I can't believe how different I feel and think than I did as that young high school graduate going to college feeling lost in the world and even in my own body. I am now on a path of following the guidance of the Lord and I know that I am that girl. I am the girl. I am the girl who knows who she is in the Lord and wants to follow His light. I am the girl that Logan was praying for when he wanted a real relationship. I am the girl my parents were hoping for when they found out they were having their first little girl. I am the girl God wants me to be. I am speaking this into existence and will live it out everyday! Pray for me in the process :-)

~Jenny

And it's a great day to be alive!!!

Ah a new year!!!

I'm not big into new year's resolutions but I am always excited about new plans!! I am so excited about where God is leading me this year! Could I use more exclamation points?! lol

Anyways.

I am now 23 and feel OLD! In my mind I still think I'm 18. You can imagine how odd I feel having a 25 year old boyfriend. But at the same time I feel like I should be further along in life. But I am running my own business with my boyfriend, have an apartment, car, cell phone, health insurance, car insurance, frog and rabbit

all to me. Now all we gotta do is get rid of that pesky job. Logan and I are moving ever closer to that goal and I think Logan and I will be very dangerous when we're free! For example ... when we were first dating at Purdue we would meet up and go downtown Lafayette and literally walk around and take funny pictures.... then go to the Lafayette mall and play with puppies. Then go to pizza hut get pizza and bread sticks and go to his apartment and watch movies. If we thought that was a fun day with no money I can only imagine what will do WITH money ;-)

Well till next time ....

~Jenny